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Season

2008-03-22T20:00:00.001+08:00

2nd April is looming,

Today, the backs freaking stepped up. Playing close to their potential and if they progress exponentially like today, damn they'd be freaking good this season.

It's been awhile since I spent the night thinking away, and the last few days doing so has been extra productive. Finding my directions in life, goals, regrets and aspirations.

Season

2008-03-21T21:47:00.001+08:00

12 more days to the season, and I blew up at training. Must've been the flue but what I did was dejavu, very similar to a dream I had days ago.

Last 6 games under the green black white wing.

Lasting through the game, to make it last.

Last ditch at it, maybe last ditch to impress myself.

End on a high, at least for yourself

Econs

2008-03-17T21:56:00.002+08:00

I'm done with organic chem revision. Will look through the reactions once again tmr morning. Gonna start on physical chem soon. Do a few chem equilibrium, ionic, acid base and solubility and then off I am to memorize the stinkin definitions for Chem energetics.

Econs today was seriously fucked up. Actually studied recession but because of lack of practice I took damn long to write the essay. Plus, i started with part b first thus explaining the fact that I illustrated recession in Part b when it should effectively been there at part a. Part A is a goner. anything more than 4.. hah agh fuck econs.

2008-03-14T18:51:00.002+08:00

I've been spending the last few days in school in the library in an attempt to study for Common Tests. Spending up to 12 hours in school clocking up to 9-10 hours of studying at a time. Looking at long term results. Not too concerned on what I get for common tests 1 really but I'm really really concerned on whats coming for Alevels.

So far I've completed

Chemistry: Intro, Alkanes, Alkenes, Arenes, Chem, Ionic and Solubility Equilibria

Math: Integration, Binomial Expansion, P&C, Vectors 1

Econs: Market Structure

Bio: -

Wow, now I'm left with

Chem: Energetics

Math: App. Integration, Vectors 2

Econs: KEI, AE-Income Determinants, International Trade

Bio: All 24 lecture notes..

Dont give a shit about bio.

Another fantastic Friday of super 14s, Hurricanes Vs Brumbies, Battle of the Backrowers definitely!

Masoe, Collins and So'ialo for Hurricanes, George Smith and Hoile for Brumbies.

Masoe triumphant over Hoile today man.

Weekends

2008-03-09T22:43:00.002+08:00

You should seriously see this guy and his handoffs. Super powerful.

Been spending the past 2 days watching super 14s. Exhilirating to say the least. Interesting to see Dan Carter and Matt Giteu plying their trades so effectively and the emergence of new names i've not heard of. Nice to see fluid play, non-rigidity in their structure(ironically)

Studying been such a bore but I've got motivation to do well! and to do well i must!

Holidays

2008-03-08T19:10:00.002+08:00

The holidays are here, but like the holidays we had last year, cept year end, its spent studying our asses off for Common Test 1 2008. Not helping that there's training almost every other day next week.

When you got 2hrs to study everyday you wished you had more, when you get 12, still not enough. Ah, life as a student sucks, the studying bit that is. Have not been productive at all, hope tonights steers a turning point! (thats what i say everytime!)

Was watching the Super 14s today and their game was indeed physical but didnt look fitnessly demanding. I'm super unfit now and my knee is acting up again. I dont know how much I want to make this last year count. ):

I've made a decision. After JC, probably gonna stop playing rugby. OR at least go for a long hiatus. Will definitely want to coach though!

Optimism

2008-03-04T21:56:00.002+08:00

The uncertainty of the future, gives hope and meaning to life. Optimism, thats the way to go in life. Faced with setbacks, not knowing the final outcome gives you hope that there's better days to come.

Obstacles

2008-03-03T20:52:00.000+08:00

When faced with obstacles, what do great man do?

Revival

2008-03-02T23:49:00.002+08:00

I've, once again, revived yet another blog. This might not even last 10 posts but I suppose this one won't ever reach the eyes of many. Just needed an avenue to reconcile my thoughts, emotions and feelings. Diaries are too gay and writing's such a chore, well I guess blogs would be the best alternative then.

Life has been hectic and taxing so far.

Suddenly in the last year of your possible schooling life (apart from university that is) one starts realising how much he has done and how much he has not. Thinking of impressions you want to leave behind, legacies, memories that you know would be etched forever in your minds especially within the dying moments of school life. The irony it feels when at the start of your schooling 'career' you cant wait to see the end of it, The freedom that awaits and less rigidity and structure in your life, but when your finally nearing the end of it, you wish it could be longer, that it would never end that perhaps if possible the rest of your lives be like this because you are afraid of what comes after of the uncertainties the sudden loss of structure.

I've lost drive and passion towards what used to be the core of all my values and beliefs. Rugby has always been a sport i enjoy playing and being a part of but in recent weeks, this passion is slowly flickering away. I dont know being the captain of RJ rugby team, I never thought it would be as tough a job. With the backlog carried on from the RI days, to win the Championship seems a far cry that is in fact there for the taking. Its hard thinking of the outcome of the team, finally after 6 long years, that I have worked so much for, helped so much for in trying to keep in tact and as a team.

Its easy to teach someone technical skills, be it knowledge or skills. Trying to instill character and beliefs is much harder. What we lacked in the last 5 years, we gotta get back in the next month. Garganutan, mammothic, massive responsibility and task to carry but I know I'm not the kind of guy who shirk away from responsibilities.

Common Tests in 15 days and preperation has been bullocks. My mind's so preoccupied with rugby that it seems there isn't much time for studying. Start tomorrow I guess hitting the book at opportunities that come! Procrastination. Just screwing me up as well.

Thats about it for now. Will update if I feel like it though.

Love,
Anwaar